January 2011
5 foods…
My Mom’s chicken fajitas.
Chicken fettucini.
Jack in the Box’s spicy chicken sandwich.
Turkey Wraps.
Goldfish
It sucks when you know you need to let go, but you can’t because you’re waiting for the impossible to happen.
Sometimes, when we’re all at Grandma’s house and I realize you’re not there, I try and tell myself you’re at college in Washington. And I’ll see you during Spring Break, or over the summer, when you come home. I think maybe if I keep doing this it will seem a lot shorter when we see eachother again. But everytime I think about that I end up in the bathroom, crying. I...
6 Places…
Chicago
NewYork
Italy
Paris
Hawaii
Heaven
7 wants…
I want the only one that was really there for me back, the only one that really knew what was going on, and how to calm me down.
I want the Coby back that I thought would never hurt me.
I want two beautiful kids.
I want a healthy marriage.
I want out of this.
I want my cousin back. I want Nick at family dinners, I want his jokes, I want his laugh, I want his presence.
8 Fears…
My achillies tendon being cut, torn, chopped in half, ect.
Losing you.
Never really getting the only person I could talk to about everything back. Sratch that, Never really getting the only person that was there for me when you were being a prick back.
Someone hiding out in my house, waiting til I’m alone, and killing me.
Dying in a fire.
Dying by drowning.
My plane...
Nine loves…
Coby Willis-He’ll always be my number one.
Baby Bailey, Annie, Sydney, Savanah-I’ll never love any dog as much as I love them.
Ryan, Chase, Brett, Nick, Trey-My cousins, are the shit.
When Bailey discovers something new, and runs up to me all excited with it in his mouth-It makes me laugh.
When everythings going wrong, when I just get done crying, Coby’s...
Ten Secrets…
My achillies tendon, freaks me the fuck out.
I never seem to make my mom happy.
Everysingle day, I talk to my dead cousin. Not pray, just talk to him.
No matter what my boyfriend does to me, I doubt I’ll leave him…like that’s any secret but…
I’m probably the messiest person you will ever meet.
I start out the school year really really well,...
