June 2011
I want my comforter back, but I can't use it because it smells like you and that kills me.s
Wanna know something? When people called you a man whore, I stood up for you. When people told me what an ass you were and how I shouldn't be with you, I stood up for you. I have been there for you, the only FUCKING one there for you. I stood there the whole summer before my freshman year while you screwed me over and guess what? I AM STILL HERE. I AM FIGHTING LIKE HELL FOR YOU. I have been fighting to keep us together since September 3rd, 2009. I'M STILL FUCKING HERE. And you're acting like I'm just some chick that you can get over in a matter of seconds. I don't get it.I don't get why I'd still want to be with you, but honestly I'm probably the only girl who would go through this for you. DOESN'T THAT FUCKING SAY SOMETHING TO YOU?
"When I got to come back to you I thought, 'You are my heaven.' But now, I think you are my hell."
Honestly, I dont get why I'm fighting my hardest for you when you dont give a shit.
"I dont think I trust you, but I'm going to try. I'm going to try because I believe we can be extraordinary rather than ordinary."
I keep thinking, "Maybe if I looked like her, or acted like that things would be different right now."
I hate that you don't want to see me. I hate that things wont be fixed until you see me. Who knows when that will be.
You know what just gets me? I dont get a "I'm so sorry I'll make it up to you I promise" anymore. All i get is "sorry" and you freaking out when I get mad that you bailed on me. I wish I could just not care as much as you.
